I'm about at the end of my rope. I have somehow become Room Mom for Little Dude's class. I'm doing volunteer training for Pnuts school tomorrow so I can work in her classroom. Speaking of Pnut's school, it's a 30 min drive, each way. This is a ridiculous amount of driving. We also have swimming, gymnastics and a crazy amount of birthday parties. I should say that all of this is exactly what I've always wanted. Not the drive to Pnut's school, but everything else. The whole reason I stopped working was so I could do these things. So why is it so difficult?
I once read a parenting book that talked about "good enough" parenting. I thought the idea of this was silly. Is being "good enough" really enough? Shouldn't we strive for a little more than good enough? I'm trying, but it might be killing me.
I'm trying to eat better and trying to get my family to eat better. This means a lot of cooking from scratch and a lot of listening to people complain about what I feed them. I end up getting frustrated because I spend so much time and energy (and money) making food that's good for them and they don't eat it. I keep telling myself if that's all they get, they will eat it. But I end up caving and buying crap. I guess sometimes crap has to be good enough.
Other than the school stuff, I'm trying to figure out Pnut's sinus issues and my own allergy/sinus/asthma stuff. I'm so tired of dealing with it. I'm taking Pnut to a nutritionist to see if she might be allergic to something. We are going on year 3 of trying to find answers. I'm so sick of it. I hate that she lives in a constant state of uncomfortableness. I hate that no one has figured out what is causing it. No one is really even looking for the cause, they are just looking for a fix. As much as I don't want to do anymore, I feel that this is not a time when "good enough" is enough.
As far as my stuff goes, I have an appointment with an asthma/allergy specialist on Friday. I'm hoping they can help me out and I can get back to training. I tried to run a few days ago. I made it a mile before I started coughing up gross stuff. For the rest of the day and the next couple days I was coughing and wheezing.
I haven't consistently trained since March. It sucks but there is nothing I can do about it. I'm hoping I'll have some answers Friday.
So, bottom line...I can only do so much. I can't be great at everything, it is too hard. Sometimes I just have to be good enough.