Expectation-Comfortable, sunny day
Reality-FREEZING-The sun is out and there is not a cloud in the sky, but it is cold.
Expectation-The kids would run around, have fun and get tired out.
Reality-I carried LD around most of the time. I'm exhausted.
Expectation-We would walk around and look at animals then stop for a snack.
Reality-They started crying for a snack before we got out of the parking lot. I'm not sure we saw more than one animal the whole time we were there.Expectation-I would have a nice day with my 2 wonderful children.
Reality-I was upset things weren't going as planned and I had a temper tantrum. Not a real one. I was just bitchy. Why do I care if they want to stop and have a snack as soon as we get to the zoo? Not only am I upset that the zoo didn't go as planned, I'm upset at how I acted and how I'm beating myself up over it.
Reality-Things don't go as planned. I'm not a perfect mom (or wife, or daughter). I'm going to say and do things I regret. I will make plenty of mistakes.
I need to be ok with reality and keep my expectations in check.
Here are a couple pictures from our trip. Brian gave me a hard time for taking the one of Little Dude crying. Looking back, I feel bad about it. But this was the 15th meltdown in the 2 hours we were there. Am I horrible for taking it?
|My poor little dude|
|Roaring like the lion|
|LD about to fall asleep|
After a drive home, filled with tears, because I declined the request to have chocolate chips rolled up in a tortilla for lunch, they are in their rooms. LD is asleep. Pnut is
I need to put the morning behind me. I have a 40 minute tempo run on my schedule today. It is the LAST thing I want to do. I'm thinking maybe snuggling with the kids on the sofa, watching Finding Nemo, and eating chocolate chip filled tortillas sounds like a better plan.