I felt guilty. Brian was pissed off. The kids woke him up on the morning he was planning on sleeping in. I had tried to wake up early enough to get my training in before everyone woke up. This didn't work out. Part of me wanted to just wanted to forget about the rest of the ride. At least I got 45 minutes in. But another part of me said "Screw that!!". If I am going to take this race seriously and give it my all, I'm going to have to ignore the excuses. I'm going to have to be selfish sometimes.
In the end I was able to do the entire 80 minutes. I'm so proud of myself for not giving into the guilt. I got my ride in and my family survived. I do, unfortunately, think I'm going to have to start waking up even earlier. I'm going to do what I need to do in order to train and keep my family from falling apart.
|This will not be me!|