Thursday, May 24, 2012

Embrace Change

As I've written about a billion times, I've had a lot of change recently.  I have accepted the changes but I have not embraced them.

My family was given a fabulous chance and we took it.  It is changing our lives but I'm still resisting the change.  I think the rest of the family jumped in with both feet.  Brian didn't have much of a choice; he dove into his job.  The kids are loving school and all the playgrounds in our neighborhood.  They couldn't be happier.

I'm not sure why I'm having such a hard time.  I'm holding on to the old stuff. Comparing everything to "home".   

I've been wallowing in my sadness the last few days.  I am not the person I want to be.  I want to be happy.  I want to enjoy life.  I want to make the most of everyday.

So, what do I need to do  to become who I want to be?  Not 100% sure about that.  I know I need to embrace the changes in my life.  My New Year's goal was to push through my fears.  I haven't been doing that. I've made a list of things that might help.  Here's what I've come up with so far.  Feel free to add to my list.

  • Keep kitchen and bedroom clean- I know this sounds like a strange thing to add to a list of "how to be happy".  The clutter in my room and the kitchen sucks the life out of me.  I hate it.
  • Be active everyday.  Even if it's just a 30 min run, I need to do something.  I get depressed without the endorphins.
  • Make a serious effort to train with a group.  There are at least 2 groups that I know of who have weekly workouts.  I need to stop making excuses and do it.
  • Play with the kids.  I have gotten in a habit of telling them to play while I do housework.  
  • Do something new every week.  See what our new city has to offer.
  • Plan date nights with Brian.  He has been working 60 hours a week.  I miss him.
That's all I've got for now.   

I hope my next post is about all the fun I've been having!


  1. I understand 100% where you are coming from! I'm going through a tough transition as well not only being away from home, but with a new job, not being settled into a home yet, Julia, training, etc. And Rob has been working ungodly hours too.
    I hope we can rally soon and start to train or do something -or even just grab coffee or dinner! once I move to the house in 10 days i'll be more settled in and Julia will be in school.
    hang in there - I know it's tough but try to keep smiling!!

    1. I remember how hard it was to live in temporary housing. Things will be so much better when you have your stuff.

      We should get together soon. If nothing else, I'll see you at the Issaquah Tri!