Embrace Change

As I've written about a billion times, I've had a lot of change recently.  I have accepted the changes but I have not embraced them.

My family was given a fabulous chance and we took it.  It is changing our lives but I'm still resisting the change.  I think the rest of the family jumped in with both feet.  Brian didn't have much of a choice; he dove into his job.  The kids are loving school and all the playgrounds in our neighborhood.  They couldn't be happier.

I'm not sure why I'm having such a hard time.  I'm holding on to the old stuff. Comparing everything to "home".   

I've been wallowing in my sadness the last few days.  I am not the person I want to be.  I want to be happy.  I want to enjoy life.  I want to make the most of everyday.

So, what do I need to do  to become who I want to be?  Not 100% sure about that.  I know I need to embrace the changes in my life.  My New Year's goal was to push through my fears.  I haven't been doing that. I've made a list of things that might help.  Here's what I've come up with so far.  Feel free to add to my list.

• Keep kitchen and bedroom clean- I know this sounds like a strange thing to add to a list of "how to be happy".  The clutter in my room and the kitchen sucks the life out of me.  I hate it.
• Be active everyday.  Even if it's just a 30 min run, I need to do something.  I get depressed without the endorphins.
• Make a serious effort to train with a group.  There are at least 2 groups that I know of who have weekly workouts.  I need to stop making excuses and do it.
• Play with the kids.  I have gotten in a habit of telling them to play while I do housework.  
• Do something new every week.  See what our new city has to offer.
• Plan date nights with Brian.  He has been working 60 hours a week.  I miss him.

That's all I've got for now.   

I hope my next post is about all the fun I've been having!