Tuesday, April 17, 2012

I Am Who I Am

I have spent the last few months beating myself up over who I am not.  Spent a lot of time and energy trying to be someone I am not.  Here is a short list of things I am not:

  • Organized
  • A good house keeper
  • A crafty person
  • Fast
I'm certain there are more, but you get the point.

Now, as a stay at home mom, organized and house keeper are pretty important. I often think of them as job requirements.  I have spent a ridiculous amount of time trying to get better.  I have read countless blogs and bought more day planners and menu planners than you can imagine. I felt like I needed to be this person in order to be a good mom and wife.  I have made some progress, but I'm still me.  

As far as "crafty", this is a nice thing to be when you have kids.  Kids love crafts.  I try, but I am not good.

I love running and cycling.  I love triathlons.  I would LOVE to be fast. I am not.

I need to be ok with these short comings.  I need to stop thinking of them as short comings.  I'm not saying I'm going to give up.  I will always keep trying.  I am simply going to embrace the person that I am.  I'm going to be the best ME that I can be.  I am going to stop comparing myself to others.  I have to work with what I've got.

I am a good mom.  Pnut and Little Dude don't care that I'm a sucky artist.  They don't care that the morning's Cheerios are still on the floor at bedtime.  I'm certain they enjoy having pancakes for dinner, when I forget to take the "planned" meal out of the freezer.

I might not be the fastest person on the course, but I have gotten faster with every season.  I should be proud of that.  I am proud of that.

I will never be the next Martha Stewart.  I will never be a professional athlete.  I WILL be the best I can be. And I WILL be proud of that.


  1. I love this!!! It is so hard some days to see other moms and what they do and wonder why I don't do the same. Cooking is a huge fault of mine- I don't cook well and don't like it. But I will try once my family is back together!

  2. Good for you....I always think the best example I can be for my kids is to just be me. Yes,sometimes the hamper may be overflowing with laundry, the carpets haven't been vacuumed in a week and we are eating cereal for dinner, but none of those things make you a good and kind person so they really don't rank too highly in my priorities. Although I just can't help but want to ride my bike faster :-)